I don’t promise this time that I’ll post ever again. It really helped me in difficult times.īut now, when I’m not sure if I even want to exist, I understand, that I need to go. Thank you so much for following me, for commenting and asking questions, for reblogging my art with funny jokes. I don’t know, when I’m going to return and will I ever come back. I feel really bad for writing this post, but I don’t want to leave people who actually liked my art without any answers. I feel so bad for bating people with my promises I never succeed to keep. I don’t seem to like any of my creations anymore. I just think I’m not good enough, I consider myself to be an empty place and I literally can’t do anything about it. The problem is not even in Toontown - other things that I like feel this way. Several months ago I thought, that I just needed to rest, and then I will be able to finally get to work - but it never happened. It lasted for a long time, but now it finally breaks me. I never got any psychological help - it is quite hard to get it in my country, and also my family wasn’t supportive when I asked them about it. I felt wrong for a long time, but I got used to it, and I always referred to it as I’m just lazy or moody.īut now, when I started to loose ability to like things that always cheered me up, when I began to avoid my own friends and family without explanation, when I found myself drowning in stress and hate towards myself - I started to realize, that something is off with me.
No matter how I like tt, my personal problems are destroying any will to work or create anything. I even began to work over a big project for this fandom, because the whole story has so much potential…īut, as you might noticed, I haven’t finished anything yet. Toontown made me alive at some point, because I finally knew, what I wanted to do. This tt blog means a lot to me: it helped me to find something, that I would really like to draw for, imagine stories and make memes. I really appreciate your attention, and I’m actually surprised that people liked my art… I haven’t posted for a long time before this blog was created.
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